Taking the first step

We live in this world with so many people around you, so many people in your life, so many relationships we hold. I was speaking to my mom about things on my mind about my relationship and she brought up a book I had that I gave her… “The Love to Dare” from the movie “Fireproof” and how I should do it, even if I’m doing it alone. I got the book when I was pregnant and I thought Xander and I would do it but that didn’t work out so I gave it to my mom because she loves to read. Well she said she will give it back and it is funny how God works… I went to Sam’s club to get formula and middle station on the way to the baby isle was the book! So I just bought it. I know my cousin is doing with her husband and she loves it. So I read it last night and the first dare was something I really need to practice… patience. I’m happy that I’m going to read it and do it. I know God has to teach me many things and I know most of my depression is coming from life style and if this is the first step I do… making my relationship better then I know things will get better along the way. Last night I was thinking to myself how important a marriage relationship. Your spouse is not the man/woman you live with or just sleep with… they are your other half, your best friend, your strength and most important your love! No relationship is perfect and there will always be the good and the bad. If you can work through it all and not just make it better for the time being but for the long run, the relationship will get stronger. I want to take that first step to make things better! I’m doing it for us and mostly for myself. I want to know I’m doing my best in this relationship. I want to God to teach me to be a wife that Xander needs, a mother to Alessana. I know God is the only one that has the power to peace a heart, bring joy in a time darkness and kindness when the anger is in the room.

While picking up the book I notice this pilates book and I picked that up too. It shows you more then 100 ways to stretch out your body. I did the first stage and WOW I’m so out of shape. I’m a skinny girl but totally beyond out of shape. So I felt good doing it and I’m going to do it every night after I read my chapter! I keep saying I’m going to work out blab la but I really need to I know that is why I’m tired. It will also help my back problems. I want to feel like a young mom not a young mom outside and an old ladies body in the inside. We will see how it goes.

Taking the first step is always easy but keeping it up is the hardest I hope God gives me the strength to keep it going and more to do other things I want to do!