Saturday, Jan 30

Busy, Busy day! Well like every morning, this morning started at 7am (thanks to Alessana) so I got up and made Alessana and I breakfast! I had French toast and Alessana had oatmeal with fruits! After I washed up and blow dyed my hair, while she played in her area! I started to pick up and do some things on my list. Picked up my sister and went to get a birthday gift for my cousin went home got ready and off to my aunt’s house for my little cousin’s birthday. Gosh Alessana loves going over there. There so many kids and she loves playing with them like a big girl! It’s funny she knows how to walk but she only does it when she sees other kids walking. So I love it when she plays with big kids because she learns to play with other kids! Well this was a crazy party… it had to have 12 nine year olds girls. They were a funny group. All of them acted so grown and very divaish! We had fun and went home and relaxed. It was really nice to have family time, Xander even joined me.

Taking the first step

We live in this world with so many people around you, so many people in your life, so many relationships we hold. I was speaking to my mom about things on my mind about my relationship and she brought up a book I had that I gave her… “The Love to Dare” from the movie “Fireproof” and how I should do it, even if I’m doing it alone. I got the book when I was pregnant and I thought Xander and I would do it but that didn’t work out so I gave it to my mom because she loves to read. Well she said she will give it back and it is funny how God works… I went to Sam’s club to get formula and middle station on the way to the baby isle was the book! So I just bought it. I know my cousin is doing with her husband and she loves it. So I read it last night and the first dare was something I really need to practice… patience. I’m happy that I’m going to read it and do it. I know God has to teach me many things and I know most of my depression is coming from life style and if this is the first step I do… making my relationship better then I know things will get better along the way. Last night I was thinking to myself how important a marriage relationship. Your spouse is not the man/woman you live with or just sleep with… they are your other half, your best friend, your strength and most important your love! No relationship is perfect and there will always be the good and the bad. If you can work through it all and not just make it better for the time being but for the long run, the relationship will get stronger. I want to take that first step to make things better! I’m doing it for us and mostly for myself. I want to know I’m doing my best in this relationship. I want to God to teach me to be a wife that Xander needs, a mother to Alessana. I know God is the only one that has the power to peace a heart, bring joy in a time darkness and kindness when the anger is in the room.

While picking up the book I notice this pilates book and I picked that up too. It shows you more then 100 ways to stretch out your body. I did the first stage and WOW I’m so out of shape. I’m a skinny girl but totally beyond out of shape. So I felt good doing it and I’m going to do it every night after I read my chapter! I keep saying I’m going to work out blab la but I really need to I know that is why I’m tired. It will also help my back problems. I want to feel like a young mom not a young mom outside and an old ladies body in the inside. We will see how it goes.

Taking the first step is always easy but keeping it up is the hardest I hope God gives me the strength to keep it going and more to do other things I want to do!

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Down Memory Lane and now!

This time last year I was a big balloon! Working part time and getting ready to deliver my buddle of joy. I had my baby shower Jan 18 and it was amazing to see everyone there showering Xander and me with love for our baby. It must have been over 75 people there. I walked in (super late) and started to cry in seconds after seeing everyone there. I had family that flew in from Philly, PA and everything. My mom, my in laws and family did such a great job on all the decorations and the whole event. It was the teddy bear theme and it was so special to me because it matched her room theme and they knew I loved the girly teddy bear. My entire maternity picture was up and they even made a collage with Xander and I baby pictures. We had TONS of gifts… I didn’t even need to get anything else. My awesome prime too all the pictures of the event and she captured everything. We played funny games and really had a great time.

Gosh how times flies… Now she is 11 months walking like crazy and she being a big girl. She doesn’t like baby food anymore. She wants big people food! She loves to eat rice and beans… but who doesn’t ;-) she is a fruit monster like her grandpa. She has been talking up a storm. I just wonder what she is saying! Lately all she wants is MOM~ and I’m loving every minute of it. She gives me kisses like crazy and pushes everyone else way ;-) HEE HEE… she knows who baked her! Lol